Reflection

I have spent the last couple of days really looking back on life and what the last year has brought me. Everyday is not perfect but there have been some perfect moments. I had a goal I set when i started High school oh so long ago. that goal was to

1. get married (Completed 2008)
2. finish school and have a nursing license (Completed 2010)
3. have a baby (Completed 2010)

I didnt necessarily want to do them in that order but the goal was to accomplish them by the time I was 25. I completed These goals just days before I turned 25

I actually intended to do them in a different order but I did it and I have this huge sense of self accomplishment. I didnt do each of these things in order to check them off my list it just happened to work out that I made my goal. As I look back over the last 7 years since I graduated High school I'm amazed at all the avenues the lord has provided for me. There has been so much on my mind lately as I have taken this journey of Motherhood on.
Motherhood has been much more difficult then I ever imagined it would be. In the first six months of Madison's life I know that I have already made mistakes as a parent and I have made huge strides as a mother and a wife. I have learned to manage a home, take care of a baby and a husband, all while trying to better myself and create the life I want with my Family. Everyday provides a perfect opportunity for me to gain patients and love for my savior as he gives me trials he knows that I can overcome.

We (me and Anthony) have been in primary practically all of our married lives. first we started off as ctr 5 teachers then less than a year later I was called as the primary secretary and Anthony was called as the 11 year old boy scout leader. I have been the primary secretary for 1 year and 7 months. its a calling I loved and hated at the same time. I spent alot of time away from my family doing "primary stuff" When I didn't even have children in primary. Most of the time I didn't mind but there were many of times I didn't understand why the Lord would give me this calling. recently I was overwhelmed by the responsibility of raising a newborn and trying to care for my family and trying to keep up with the primary as well. I quickly realized that I was in way over my head and I had to asked to be released the reluctance of them to release me from my calling put me on the verg of attending another ward because I needed to be with my family. the finally agreed and I feel as though a weight has been lifted off my shoulder and I can now focus on my job of being a Mother.