Light at the end of the tunnel

Now that I'm 4 days overdue the doctor has decided its time for the baby to join us here on earth. There is an end in sight.

I'm being Induced Tuesday November 30,2010 at 9am

Now the question is will she be a November or a December baby??

I'm so excited I cant wait to meet my baby girl, hold her in my arms, and tell her everyday for the rest of my life how much I love her!!

I have waited for this day for the 24 Years and 11 Months of my life...I feel so blessed and privileged that Heavenly Father has entrusted me with one of his precious children.

I do fear that with an induction the possibility of a C-section is more possible and more likely. it is MAJOR SURGERY. Which could mean more stress on the baby and a more difficult recovery.

3rd Trimester

The last 90 days or so have been quite long and so much has happened I almost should have wrote things down monthly but here's what I remember:

-I never really struggled to sleep
-Madison had hiccups several times a day for hours on end and at times they drove me crazy
-I loved feeling her move around inside me but was never willing to admit it to most people
-As my belly got bigger I struggled to keep food in my mouth and off my shirt
-I hit my belly with the car door more times then I could count
-at about 36 weeks if became difficult to drive so Anthony did 99% of the driving
-I had very little swelling in my feet or hands but they found swelling in my upper back which caused my hands to go numb and have tingling most of the time
-at 38 weeks I was admitted to the hospital for overnight medication due to a severe kidney infection and kidney stones
-Because I was admitted to the hospital I missed Grandpa Anderson's Lifetime achievement award dinner (which for me was the ultimate disrespect and devastation but he forgave me)
-There were two baby showers one from my family and one from church. We were so blessed to have such good friends and family who were so generous
-the longing in my arms to hold my baby girl got stronger as I got closer to my due date and at times it was almost unbearable
-I still have no idea what braxton hix contractions feel like
-Anthony has taken over a lot of my care that I cant do...putting on socks and shoes, helping me get my pants on, and multiple other things that become difficult with the belly and the numb hands
-He has gone to every doctors appointment through out the pregnancy (except maybe one or two) and has been so supportive
-I cry at random and I HATE IT
-I feel like a bull in a china shop with my big belly
-TV is worthless and there's nothing good on!!
- at 39 weeks I finally started having False labor pains (and I was ecstatic about it)
-Being a nurse helped very little during my pregnancy but I had some great books and good friends as resources that made it all easier to understand
-I only gained 14Lbs the entire pregnancy but I ate like a horse
-At 37 weeks we found out my placenta was on the right side of my uterus

All in all I thought I would love being pregnant and I have to admit now 40 weeks later that there is very little about being pregnant that I truly Love! It went by fast but not fast enough.

3 DAYS TO GO!!

Admitted

I started having pain on my left side on Friday. it wasn't unbearable and medication was helping so i didnt think anything of it. Saturday morning i went to a training meeting for church and got pain that was so unbearable i thought i was going to pass out- again on the left side. so i called my mom since anthony was working and asked her to bring me pain medication so i could get through the meeting and go home to rest. well the pain went away until about 2pm. it was more like a dull ache then a real pain so i just ignored it and went on my way i picked Anthony up from work at 5 and we went home to finish getting ready for grandpa's award dinner at Cal State San Bernardino. by the time we were finished getting ready to go the pain was unbearable and i could no longer stand up or even move. i took some pain medication and put an ice pack on what i was sure was a kidney stone. after a half hour the pain was not going away so although i didn't want to i had to admit that i need to go to the hospital for help i didn't want to put stress on the baby. so we forwent the award dinner (which i was not happy about) and headed for Pomona Valley Hospital.

They determined not only was i having kidney stones but i also had a severe kidney infection. Severe enough that they admitted me to the floor to watch the baby and medicate me for the infection and for the pain safely. of course i didn't have any pain until like 2 in the morning when everyone else on the floor is having baby's i'm bothering this sweet nurse for pain medication because i can barely breath. anthony stayed at the hospital with me until 10pm and then i sent him home because he was falling asleep in the chair and i wanted him to sleep in our bed not in that uncomfortable chair. the doctor came in the morning and looked at me. he decided after about 11 am i could go home that it was safe. he sent me home with pain medication to be used only when in severe pain and antibiotics for the infection.

They checked the fluid around Madison before i could go home to make sure she was safe too. I'm proud to say she had an AFI of 16.2 which is amazing since a week ago it was only 9.1 and considered on the low side. The normal is anything above 10! its nice to be home and in my own bed. I definitely only want to be admitted to the hospital again if I'm having this baby because knowing i was going home without my baby and everyone else was going home with their baby was devastating to say the least. on the upside until now my cervix has been completely closed and I'm happy to say I'm officially dilated to .5cm !! I know its not much but at least its progress or i feel like its progress and that is encouraging that there is a light at the end of this tunnel.

10 Days to go!